Away From Home

Been away from home for two nights for a training in Manila. This is my first. Though I am thankful for the privilege entrusted to me by the company, as a mother, the privilege also comes with a sacrifice. It is no joke to consciously try not to think of home – husband and kids so that you could be your best of self during working hours because you know that privilege given by the company comes with responsibility. Nevertheless, the struggle is real.

I have always admired stay at home moms cause I have been there. Being a stay at home mom can bring out “super powers” and body parts that you never thought existed. But now I am a working mom, this requires a different kind of strength and a different level of faith in the Most High. To juggle the so called work, life, and balance is a great challenge. To choose what to prioritize and give up needs great wisdom. To gather strength after a long day at work so you can attend to the needs of your kids requires a lot of selflessness. As I am now temporarily walking in this path as a working mom, my eyes have been opened, my faith in God challenged, and my prayer life deepened. In eight months as a working mom, I have learned two things SURRENDER and TRUST.

These two words goes hand in hand. When I say SURRENDER, it does not connote defeat especially when I am surrendering all my worries, my fears, my desires for my family to the One who is TRUSTWORTHY – GOD.

SURRENDER is not weakness because as I surrender my inabilities (physical and spiritual) to God the Father, I know He will not deny His strength to work in me. As Scripture says in 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 “But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”

SURRENDER doesn’t mean resignation to my responsibilities to parent my kids and to train them the way the should go. But it is acknowledging that I am not in control and I as I surrender that to the Lord, I am trusting His control over the life of my kids. I am TRUSTING God that while I am at work and I can’t have my very own eyes to watch over them – my God is.

And in a greater picture, whether a stay at home mom or a working mom, with much prayer and faith in God, we surrender and trust the Lord that one day our children will have a strong and deep relationship with their Creator and Savior, Jesus Christ. More than a good life here in this world, that is and should be the end goal of every parent.

P.S. My daughter, Zoe gave this to me before I left for Manila, thus making it even more difficult for me not to miss them.
Letter from daughter